I want to get out of these dark place. I want to be happy and carefree once again. Why do i keep thinking that i can fix this? Is he worth the things i am going through right now? He pushes people away, those that loved him, that came close to me. Why? What have i done to cause all these conflicts, all these torn friendships. So what if i got the answer from him? Would anything i were to do to put it back together, make things work out? He probably would just think i'm retarded and looking for attention. I hate the fact i have caused this clique to fall apart. Maybe things would be better, if i never had existed. No hatred. No complications. No Me.